My sincerest apologies for not writing in forever and a half. School is incredibly busy, and there's been plenty of ups and downs to be had.
Life, overall, has been good. You almost have to look at everything that way. A negative attitude never really gets you anywhere, and even if it did, would you want to go there? Don't get my wrong, I'm not Miss Perky all the time. Far from it! But I do believe that attitude makes all the difference. I wasn't always like that - I really didn't start thinking about life that way until my father went through Impact training (I'm still not entirely sure what that is, so I'm sorry if I'm a bit sparse on the details). His entire ideology changed, and it was a change for the better. It focused on the positive and making life simple - if you really look at it, life IS simple. We just overcomplicate things merely because we think we have to or because we have nothing better to do with our time. We are just naturally complicated, and its frustrating. Why add more stress to a life when it can become stressful at the drop of a hat? It really doesn't make sense. What's even more ironic is the fact that when people are presented with this option, a proactive choice to make LIFE EASIER, they oppose it as much as possible. They insist its not feasible, that an easy life is just not meant for them. I have reached a point of frustration with several people because of this, because it doesn't make any sense to me at all. Why would you refuse a better quality of life?! Like, seriously. It baffles me entirely because once I chose to be more positive, be more open to experiences, and try to look at life from a different perspective, I literally felt a weight lift off my shoulders. That's how I know God wants me to achieve and life happily - He led my dad to that realization and it reflected onto me. Thank you!! So someone please explain to me why NO ONE ELSE wants to choose an easier and happier life. I'd appreciate it.
My best friend is leaving for his mission in Cambodia in about six days. I am so incredibly proud of him - not only because he's taking a leap of faith literally into the unknown, but he's going with a purpose. And it's a great purpose, to top it all off. I have never felt any sadness in thinking about him leaving, and maybe that's because I'm strange. Almost everyone else I've talked to acts like he is dying and never coming back - why?? That not only makes it harder on yourself but harder on him to go! HELLO PEOPLE! Yes, he will be gone for two years. But what a glorious two years that will be!! He is going out to help people, to bring them peace and joy. And this isn't the only place I've seen similar "grief", if you will call it that. I understand why people are sad - they will miss them, two years IS a long time, and they will both miss out on the growth and development in a way because they won't see each other for so long. Even though he's going out to a war of sorts, he's going to WIN a war because Satan can't do jack when missionaries are on the prowl. And he won't come back with bruises or epic battle scars, he will merely come home humble and glowing with the Spirit. So in a way I understand, but in a way I don't. Maybe the fact that I wasn't raised in a religious home accounts for my attitude about this, or maybe it's because I'm blunt to a fault, but that's kind of irrelevant when you look at the facts. So I don't care what anyone says - I am PROUD of him and will continue to be so the entire two years he is gone. Elder Kuhn, you will do AMAZING things!
Well, enough ranting for the day. Time for homework!!
Five Positive Things I've Found Today
1. I have an AWESOME bishop
2. I get to spend quality time with my family this weekend
3. I have amazing family members who love me very much
4. Even though the weight loss is really hard, I am learning how to build a better lifestyle for myself
5. I have pretty eyes!
-Bug
